Unable to speak, but his ears – and mind – as sharp as ever, Adrian tried to concentrate on stifling the scream building inside his head.
Lying prone in his hospital bed, right arm plugged into the life-giving socket that was his IV drip, the only sound his ravaged body could muster was a low, painful-sounding yelp of sorts. More canine in its cry than of the human species.
On the heels of that, the singular, pointed question – the most frightful thought that his brain had yet to conjure in all his previous 22 years: ‘What in the hell is happening to me?’ For which he had no answer.
The darkness engendered by his damaged eyes providing the screen for his mind to show its movie of the moment – warning him of the scream it was conjuring up while remembering / examining / scrutinizing his overall life before the accident .. his life now .. and .. after – if – he ever gets out of this place. Needing to share .. to reach out .. find someone, something .. anything .. to – please – explain what was happening to him.
But Adrian,in his drug-induced state of stupor, couldn’t even manipulate his mouth to spit out one letter, let alone the proper configuration of same to birth a word.
Fortunately though, he was finding, it was only his physical being that had been ravaged by the accident. His mind, it appeared, seemed unaffected.
“Unfortunately so,” his crystal-clear cerebellum meekly chimed in on his / its behalf. As if it was feeling some twang of survivor’s remorse.
He could nearly see / hear / taste the words trying to escape his wired-shut mouth .. each appearing in his mind’s eye as crisp and clear and cool as a brightly-colored musical note fashioned out of ice. Hovering – just for a moment – in front of his closed eyes – close enough for him to clearly discern the outline of each individual letter of each individual word he was thinking of.
And then .. just as quickly and surprisingly as they appeared .. they were gone. Replaced again by the infinite darkness coloring this new world.
Then .. hearing the man on the TV. Doing the news. Mentioning the date: April, 13. The day his father had died.
Is that you, dad? Never mind .. I know it is.
He could feel a wistful smile forming on his lips.
I love you too, dad. See you soon.
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